clairepoems: decision

Friday, October 21, 2005

decision

i know you see it
i know you feel it
everything I keep inide
everything you set aside

one word
and you awaken me
one look
and you're the only one i see

i've been running away
finding a way
a way to control this
a way to erase this

i know this is wrong
i knew this all along
but i don't know how to stop this
i don't know how to forget this

for you are someone so dear to me
someone who made me wanna see
all the colors in my life
all the troubles and the lies

but i know i must do this
i know i must control this
for things will never be fine
i know you'll never be mine

so i guess this is the end
the end of the trouble
the end of the lie
but i still believe the hardest thing is goodbye

so i wanna thank you
for everything you did to me
the attention you gave me
the time you alloted for me

and i wanna say sorry
if i bug you occationally
if i hurt you in any way
because of the things i always say

so if this is what we call goodbye
this might be the time i'll let myself cry
because the truth turned out to be a lie
and gave us a chance for one last goodbye

-clairedeleon