clairepoems: 14 years-edited

Saturday, October 22, 2005

14 years-edited

Don't know how
Don't know why
Wonder what happened
Wonder when it happened

My life was peaceful
Things are going wonderful
But something happened that changed everything
An event that made me realize something

On the day we met
You revealed a secret
A secret that awoken me
A secret that changed a lot in me

I began to realize
All the secrets and the lies
All the secrets you set aside
All the lies you hid inside

Moments passed by
Then I started to die
I became numb, i grew blind
Something killed my body, someone killed my mind

And then the rumors started to spread
The secrets, the lies, the things that you said
Can't say the're wrong, can't say they're right
But whatever it is i know i have to fight

As the truth was opened
About the things that happened
There were nights I can't sleep
Because the scars run deep

I've always lived my life a certain way
A certain way I follow everyday
But now I'm sick of this life
I'm done living a lie

I have the will
To control everything I feel
Control the emotion
Control the depression

I wanna run
Away from anxiety
Away from insecurity
And live the life I’ve longed to see

But how will I do this
How will I erase these
All the troubles inside
All the memories I have to leave behind

I know forgetting isn't easy
But someday I'll get ready
Accept the past, accept my fate
For i believe it's never too late